Blinded By Colors

First the colors...
That's usually how I see things.
Or at least, how I try.
Something white.
Of the blinding kind.
Some of you are thinking that white is not really a color.
Are you stupid?!
White is a color!
Without a question.
I can't really explain it to you.
I studied the blinding.
White-snow sky,
The whole globe dressed in snow, and
Trees that wore blankets of ice.
I practically inhaled it.
I was interested.
Curiosity got the better of me.
And I watched.

"From The Book Thief by Markus Zusak"

I was suprised when Rudy had so much commitment to steal, but he wasn't doing anything. Wouldn't he want to steal? All the valuables such as food, jewlery, or money he can take, but he's not trying. Did he have a flashback? Did he remember something?

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